Thoughts of whats to come = BITTER SWEET

Currently Listening Lover I Don't Have to Love By Bright Eyes see related

I'm Single.

Well, I got my heart back today...

believe it or not...

its okay.

Its not broken or ill.

Well...there may be a slight hole.

But the doctor said to give it a week and it will heal.

you write such pretty words..

but LIFE is no storybook.

Love is an excuse to get hurt.

Do you like to hurt?

--BrightEyes--

Dear Diary, there is this boy...and he kind of has my heart.

My husband Gerald
and me.

He is pretty much the most amazing guy I have ever met.

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death...

oh goodness...

its been a while since I've updated this puppy.

First of all I want to say Happy Birthday VanPelto!!!

I think that this is the time in our lives where we make the most changes of who we are and the point of life where we become who we really are. We are forming our future by the things we do. Our actions we take now will effect us for the rest of our lives.

okay just thought I would say that

back to the fun stuff...

I got a wonderful boyfriend: Gerald Kent Dolley from Orangefield....
hes lovely
and he makes me smile

hehe.

I'm going to try to go tonight to the Oliver show to watch Ashley V!!

later

love you guys

andhearts. [Lulu]

The Ramblings of Hatrid of a Hopeless Teen

THE LIST OF THINGS I HATE

I hate being in situations that I can’t control.

I hate living my life day by day not knowing what’s going to happen next.

I hate that I can’t be there for my mom and my sisters.

I hate that medications mixed with alcohol makes him worse.

I hate that I can’t think of anything else besides my situation.

I hate that I can’t help him over this hill.

I hate that I feel useless and hopeless.

I hate the fact that I am “too young to understand”

I hate the fact that God let us go through this pain again.

I hate that I feel alone.

I hate that my mangled heart is being torn in two.

I hate that my mom thinks she’s a bad mother.

I hate that I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.

I hate that I react badly to these situations.

I hate that tears don’t heal everything.

I hate that I can’t drive so that I can be anywhere else besides here.

I hate that I don’t know what else to do besides write this thing and hope that an answer comes from it.

I hate that no one will prolly read this anyways because its just a rambling of a lost teenage girl.

I hate that I put so much effort into something so stupid.

I hate having all this hatred because I’m not really a hating person at all.

Life sucks.

[Bridget]